Sunday, January 4, 2009

Back to 2009 and Reasons I Stopped Writing For a While

OK, I am back to write here full swing. I am going to try to write here once a week. However, I guess I need to tell you the important things.

My enthusiasm for New York started to wane because depression kicked in. Depression tends to come very unpredictably for some people and it came for me as well.

I became involved with a wonderful guy, but he just appeared in the wrong time. Depression does not let you live relationships fully, making the relationship short-lived. I won't mention much more for now as I got my reasons and I am not ready to reveal them all.

Depression creeps up in a very bad way. It is unpredictable. There is a weird chemical imbalance in your brain and can attack you at the wrong time. It attacked my sister when she had all she wanted at the time and it seemed to attack me. But now I am treating it. I am overall much better, although I got a recent relapse. When you are taking responsibility of your feelings and behaviors, it is a daily battle.

I created an action plan along with my therapist. It is a coping skills plan and I started implementing it last Wednesday. It is working well so far. One of my goals is writing here as well, but the way I have been writing here.